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Saturday, November 16 [ posted @ 11:16:00 PM ] pv this lingering feelin of anticipating n want a subtle but omnipresent ache, as i wait to b with u again tryin to not think of u, but i actually feel u with me..in me its a tranquil type of feeling..delicious in a sweet n savory way.. even the silence is tasty, we know the passion is there but we just want to relish the 'now' moment let our bodies hurt with desire, with love knowing in a few moments, we will let our hearts succumb to each other when we will devour, like savages surrendering intensely n totally its just us n nobody else.. our power, passion, devotion its u its me we belong together we own each other. # [ posted @ 6:29:00 AM ] pv  What Is Your True Aura Colour? brought to you by Quizilla # [ posted @ 6:25:00 AM ] pv  What's YOUR Writing Style? You are a dark writer. A fierce and loyal follower of Poe and the other gothic authors, you LOVE to instill a sense of revulsion and somewhat fear in your readers. You love to poke their brains with logic dealing with the darker side of the human mind and character. Truly surprising and a true individual, you'll do ANYTHING to create a scene. :) brought to you by Quizilla # [ posted @ 6:16:00 AM ] pv  Which Personality Disorder Do You Have? brought to you by Quizilla # [ posted @ 6:11:00 AM ] pv there was somthin...so comfortable....abt last nite n this mornin..this feelin of warmth, of familiarity...it was like home..home sweet home...the familiarity of his voice, it just oozed comfort..peace...inner calm..its indescribable really..there was somethin so comforting..gentle...it was like returning home from battle...to outstretched arms, every single thing abt it was so familiar..safe....i felt that i cud close my eyes forever, n know that he was looking at me with love..n that he wud protect me n not let any harm come upon me..with my eyes closed, i wud almost feel his love envelop me, my whole body..my whole body would b encased in his love n protection..n i wud see nothin but his face..i wud hear nothin but his voice..n feel nothin but his touch....n taste nothin but his lips n mouth....i almost feel like its just us 2 against the world..like siamese twins conjoined, like one person, with one mind, one heart..we re totally in sync w/ each other...n no matter what happens, i know he ll always b there to cuddle me close, n bathe me in his love n comfort....the desire for each other never left us..the animal love, the animal magnetism, the carnal want for each other..he is my man n i m his bitch....hes mine to have, n im his to have..its sexual chocolate with gooey caramel n fluffy marshmallow inside..soft, delicious, addictive, gobsmackingly desirable, oh so pleasurable, erotic, sexy, sweet, luscious... w/ a tender center to boot... # Friday, November 15 [ posted @ 10:49:00 AM ] pv ive decided to change the layout of my blog evy month. just a thought..not exactly a mission statement. just a thought. a stupid, idle thought...oh fuck, i need some sleep.... # [ posted @ 10:41:00 AM ] pv i hate it that i ve got so much to do but i never get round to doing them..then they just keep on piling up until im totally drowning in them n im too overwhelmed n stressed out to bother..so i end up not doin em altogether..UGH why does evythin hve to revolve around work? isnt life hard enuff ..the whole relationship thing, family thing, money thing, politics, identity crises, self doubt, self hate, self pity shit .. concerns abt the future, ur life, retirement, ur kids..everything! ..its like life is abt sortin out one problem or dilemma after another ...is this y we re here? ..makin it thru a succession of problem after problem, failure after failure? copin..disappointin urself, disappointin others, pickin up the pieces ..then failing again, then workin up the courage to get bk on that horse again ..sigh ......i wonder if its really worth all this shit somtimes ...i wish i cud jst sleep into the nite w/o worryin about the nex day for once .. just dream of lifes little pleasures, savor the memories that made me smile ..laugh at myself..actually feel gd that im alive n actually look fwd to the new day, bcos no matter wat ..the sun will set, the birds will sing, the flowers grow, little babies laugh n giggle n goo n coo .........a baby will b born, 2 ppl will b makin love, friends will b laughin n huggin n tellin each other how much they mean to each other, ppl will b makin a positive difference in the world....ahhh love....the one n only thing keepin us goin, keepin the world alive ..its such a beautiful simple thing, love. but so easily confused, abused, misunderstood .... sigh .. # [ posted @ 8:55:00 AM ] pv go here # [ posted @ 8:52:00 AM ] pv  how would you commit suicide? YOU WOULD DROWN YOURSELF. you are considerably jaded, even apathetic, about life. you find death desirable, but you aren't particularly concerned with suicide. you're strong and opinionated. if you did decide to kill yourself, it would be on a whim, and you wouldn't want to be pitied by those you'd leave behind. # Thursday, November 14 [ posted @ 12:23:00 PM ] pv calling it a nite. about time too, i gta b up in cpl hrs....blah, i hate fridays. # [ posted @ 5:51:00 AM ] pv hm i feel like havin...chocolate # [ posted @ 5:50:00 AM ] pv im sleepy. in fact i just woke up from a quickie nap...i told my dad i was gona read the paper in bed for a min n nex thing u know...zzZzzzzz...... i feel pretty good today..i tink my workout is taking effect, mentally wise i mean..i am obviously not gettin ne lighter :( but at least im feelin better abt myself...it all starts up there right?..i mean surely if u dont feel good abt urself then no matter what u do ure still gonna feel like shit? today was a blah day, bz as shit but in a good way...woke up at just before 8 to shower, then left for work an hr later...hmm forgot wat i had for brekkie so im sure it was fat-free and guilt-free....n i stayed back today after class, to photocopy some stuff for saturday's class....oh yea shit i got pissed off at work over somthing n i wrote my feelins down on my notebook thingy, full of choice f and s words....i left my book open in one room as i was outside photocopyin the stuff..n my damn boss went inside to clean up the place, n i fuckin dint know!...damn my book was in full view!...sorta feelin embarrassed abt it now, come to think of it...he must think im some freak, or even worse..he mite b reconsiderin my employment there! urgh...... # Wednesday, November 13 [ posted @ 6:35:00 AM ] pv according to humanforsale.com: You are worth exactly: $1,942,040.00. $1.9mil too much for a useless, stupid fuckup. # Tuesday, November 12 [ posted @ 9:54:00 PM ] pv the bottom line is: i hate myself # [ posted @ 9:37:00 PM ] pv i so hate myself # [ posted @ 9:34:00 PM ] pv im so screwd up # [ posted @ 9:34:00 PM ] pv saved by the fuckin bell i was gonna subject myself to some kind of slow torture today after work, bcos of the SHIT ive landed myself in...but thank god my boss just rang and she wants me to fill in for someone later - fuck, if im gonna be killin myself slowly then i may as well get some dough on the side for it # [ posted @ 8:22:00 PM ] pv oh god oh god oh god oh god.....what the hell have i done?? shittttttttt # [ posted @ 8:12:00 PM ] pv Nickname: roch but i dont particularly like it Gender: f Born: phils Lives in: hk Starsign: libra School: nope im a working gal now Pets: one baby, jin - a cutie brown tail-less mongrel (rip kitty i miss you much) Where are you from?: eh, phils i guess What color are your eyes?: black Hair color: er brown but my black roots are showing Piercing/tattoos: 4/4 Marital status: attached 1. Are you a virgin?: no 2. Are you a right or a lefty or an ambidextrous?: right but whats ambidextrous mean? 3. What are your personality traits?: impulsive, obsessive, moody, very honest (brutally so), in yer face, quiet, sensitive, a worrywart, very stubborn, a procrastinator + an idealist 4. What do you like most about yourself?: im truthful and i speak from the heart 5. Pick a song that describes yourself: nobodys wife 6. What's your name backwards?: duh 7. What does your name mean?: little rock 8. Do you believe in yourself?: mostly no 9. Do you have an accent?: of course i do, doenst everyone? 10. Do you believe in God?: yes 11. Do you go to church?: i try 12. Can you swim?: yes...sorta 13. Do you drink?: yes...definitely! 14. Do you do drugs?: NO 15. Do you smoke?: yes..kinda 16. Do you bite your nails?: when im worried or anxious 17. Are you addicted to the Internet?: nah 18. How many times do you check your e-mail per day?: 5 times, 6? 19. Do you ever have AIM conversations?: nope 20. Do you have ICQ?: yeah 21. How long can you hold your breath?: havent tried n its too lame to find out rite now 22. Nosehairs (on you): shit i wouldnt know 23. Nosehairs (on your boy/girlfriend or potential other) long or short?: define long/short 24. What hobbies do you have?: AR/AL, veganism, walking, drinking (alcohol, DUH!), clubbing, readin n writing 25. What kind of deodorant do you use?: simple 25. Do you think you're attractive?: hmm im ordinary..or just under ordinary 26. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal?: no but theyre at the foot of my bed, does that count? 27. What do you wear to bed?: shorts/tee/undies, sometimes just a large tee, other times nothing 28. One Pillow or 2?: 2 # [ posted @ 7:56:00 PM ] pv yesterday the planets were misaligned or something....some things happened, weird things..and its sorta knocked my brain/heart/mind off balance totally : i downloaded tons of indo mp3s, for the first time, becos i just happened to be surfing here and i felt like listening to something different : i cooked the tin of food, some gluten mince thingy, tatt sent me months and months ago back in feb - id been saving it for a special occasion. and also, the last time i cooked was..more than a month back : his best friend emails me yesterday wanting a chat - after two months of not hearing from him : for the first time since roque left last week, im feeling a tinge of bitterness that he still hasnt conacted me : two old ex-best friends who i talk to every month and meet every 6 months ring up on the same day yesterday, within a spate of an hour would veni call these 'signs'? and if so, signs for what? what is someone trying to tell me? im so confused...i feel theres something i should know or do and i have no clue..but some things definitely out there, and some things definitely not right. # [ posted @ 7:48:00 PM ] pv life love learning making mistakes realizations doing the right thing strength morality repressing your emotions embracing the moment faithfulness # [ posted @ 8:55:00 AM ] pv i did this test here: Your Temperament is: Idealist (NF) Idealists are enthusiastic, they trust their intuition, yearn for romance, seek their true self, prize meaningful relationships, and dream of attaining wisdom. Idealists pride themselves on being loving, kindhearted, and authentic. Idealists tend to be giving, trusting, spiritual, and they are focused on personal journeys and human potentials. Idealists make intense mates, nurturing parents, and inspirational leaders. Idealists, as a temperament, are passionately concerned with personal growth and development. Idealists strive to discover who they are and how they can become their best possible self--always this quest for self-knowledge and self-improvement drives their imagination. And they want to help others make the journey. Idealists are naturally drawn to working with people, and whether in education or counseling, in social services or personnel work, in journalism or the ministry, they are gifted at helping others find their way in life, often inspiring them to grow as individuals and to fulfill their potentials. Idealists are rare, making up no more than 8 to 10 percent of the population. But their ability to inspire people with their enthusiasm and their idealism has given them influence far beyond their numbers. # [ posted @ 8:07:00 AM ] pv Your name gives you a responsible, reserved, and dignified nature, able to find a certain amount of success in anything you undertake. You have an appreciation for the finer and deeper aspects of life. Your scholarly, studious interests incline you to art, literature, philosophy, music, and drama. You wonder about the deeper aspects of life contained in religious theories and occult beliefs. Others may consider you to be aloof and unemotional since you often find it difficult to express spontaneously. They could interpret your quietness as disinterest and aloofness, for they do not realize the depth of your feelings and thoughts. You require time alone, especially in the outdoors, to cope with the pressures of life. This name causes tension to affect your heart and respiratory organs, resulting in colds or bronchial conditions. from here...i must say theres some truth to all this n this is the analysis for roque: The first name of Roque creates a dual nature for, on the one hand, you desire change and varied experiences in order to avoid monotony, and yet you are attuned to system, order, and attention to detail. You can be very analytical, exacting, and patient in your undertakings until your interest is exhausted, at which time you switch to something else even though it means leaving your undertakings unfinished. This name makes you inquisitive and scientific in your approach to life, requiring everything to be proved to satisfy your skepticism. You can be a stickler for detail, and very fussy and particular. As spontaneous verbal expression can be difficult for you, you often feel awkward and embarrassed in situations requiring tact and diplomacy. This name creates strong physical desires, such as an appetite for heavy, starchy foods and meat. Tension affecting the solar plexus and digestive organs could lead to ulcers, growths, or constipation. # Monday, November 11 [ posted @ 8:43:00 PM ] pv i just had oatmeal..will u think im a freak if i tell u that i found it yummy? # [ posted @ 12:42:00 PM ] pv im not sleepy yet but i know i gotta turn in...i hate wakin up late n findin out that ive just wasted half the day sleeping i download wayy too many mp3s i think...ohwell. # [ posted @ 12:21:00 PM ] pv # [ posted @ 8:27:00 AM ] pv to u, roque Blessed - christina aguilera When I think, how life used to be Always walking in the shadows Then I look at what you've given me I feel like dancing on my tip-toes I must say, everyday I wake And realize you're by my side I know I'm truly... Blessed for everything you've given me Blessed for all the tenderness you show Do my best with every breath that's in me Blessed, to make sure you never go There are times that I test your faith 'Til you think you might surrender Baby I'm, I'm not ashamed to say That my hopes were growing slender You walked by in the nick of time Looking like an answer prayer You know I'm truly... Blessed for everything you've given me Blessed for all the tenderness you show Do my best with every breath that's in me Blessed, to make sure you never go Blessed with love and understanding Blessed when I hear you call my name Do my best with faith that's never-ending Blessed, to make sure you feel the same Deep inside of me you fill me with your gentle touch You know I'm truly... Blessed for everything you've given me Blessed for all the tenderness you show Do my best with every breath that's in me Blessed, to see you never go # [ posted @ 7:19:00 AM ] pv hmmm # [ posted @ 7:09:00 AM ] pv im hungry # [ posted @ 6:15:00 AM ] pv 
Nope. Definitely not bisexual. Thank you for trying ;)Although you only like to eat one kind of meat, that doesn't mean you are any less of a sexual gourmand. You just choose only the finest of dicks/breasts (whichever strikes your particular gender's fancy) and enjoy them with the style and panache that ideally suits you. Are *You* Bisexual? Click Here to Find Out! More Great Quizzes from Quiz Diva # [ posted @ 6:03:00 AM ] pv 
You Are A Romantic Kisser!You'll only kiss if the mood is right and if you think you are falling in love. Some may say you're old fashioned, but when you kiss, you see stars! One kiss from you, and anyone will be hooked forever. How Do *You* Kiss? More Great Quizzes from Quiz Diva # [ posted @ 5:59:00 AM ] pv 
Your Sex Position is Doggie StyleCarnal. Lusty. And totally erotic! Bend over with your ass in the air. Leave the lights on, if you dare. What's Your Sex Position? More Great Quizzes from Quiz Diva yikes. # [ posted @ 5:54:00 AM ] pv  What's *Your* Sex Sign? More Great Quizzes from Quiz Diva Aries, you are headstrong, spolied, fiery in temperment, and fiercely independent. You always want to be the best anyone's ever had, and you'll spend all night convincing your lover that you are. Don't worry - you usually are the best anyone has ever had. When you get down, you don't leave out anything. Sexually, you're a leader and very sure of yourself. One of your favorite positions is being on top, where you can move freely - while letting your lover observe you orgasm. Sex with you is always exciting. You start with teasing, playful seduction - that always drives your lovers wild with frustration. You always deliver though! You love being over powered, and you respond to a strong sexual appetite with equal fervor. The confident lover who can give you breathtaking, powerful sex will have you eating out of his or her hand. # Sunday, November 10 [ posted @ 11:41:00 PM ] pv oh n we re gonna repaint my room too...hows pale green sound? # [ posted @ 11:40:00 PM ] pv so ive decided to start lookin after myself better..n that includes eatin the right foods, gettin more exercise, n keepin the right mind...i dont know if its bcos roque has left that im feelin way too tired always, my joints hurt n my body aches every time i wake up...veni says its emotional, that im just lamenting the fact that roques gone away...but whatever the case, ive decided to start takin my vitamin supplements again n eat more fruit n veggies...last nite b4 bed i had a stalk of raw celery, n while i felt like puking when i finished it, i did feel better afterwards...perhaps it was just mentally tho so i got a call from my other boss this mornin n theyve arranged for me to teach another class on fridays..yesss, this is just the break i need, bcos im so short of money :( this will really come in handy end of this month when ive got like, the cellfone bills to settle, my land line bill, my credit card bill...not to mention my uni loan...ugh i was gonna clean up the house a bit before leavin for work, but im pressed for time rite now so i guess itll have to wait till tomorrow...my rooms like a hurricane hit it....the living room needs vacuuming too...speakin of which, we re installing my brand new tv tomorrow yay! well actually we re not like installing it, we re just gettin the shelf thingy for it at ikea so we can hire someone to put it on my wall..n voila, my room is complete! now i just need to buy a vcd player...or im playin around with the idea of gettin a dvd player...... whoops time to go, or im gonna be late till later, peace day one: 119 # |
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