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[ posted @ 10:03:00 AM ] pv
fuck whered all my entries from yesterday go??? #

[ posted @ 10:02:00 AM ] pv
testing #

      [ posted @ 10:37:00 AM ] pv
sleepy..gna log off n watch david letterman in bed
nitenite #

      [ posted @ 10:37:00 AM ] pv
im bored...i got soo much to do, but i dont wana do them. but i got nothin else to do....hmm...so mebbe ill jst sit here n do nothing until my eyes close on me.... #

      [ posted @ 9:35:00 AM ] pv
lalalala #

      [ posted @ 3:07:00 AM ] pv
i want to fix my homepage but STUPID tripod is still fuckin up....... #

      [ posted @ 3:06:00 AM ] pv
brrr im cold. #

      [ posted @ 4:49:00 PM ] pv
i had a dream abt tatto last nite, it was so realistic :( n now im thinkin abt it...n im also missin him....sigh....feel like being with him again..

in it we confronted our issues..i tink we were sayin gdbye...but he was also tellin me how hurt he was that i 'left' him when he was too bz at work (this was how we startd to drift apart - he d get so caught up at work he d forget my existence for days on end)...he asked, "why did u meet him? why? why? why did u have to meet him??" of course, referring to roque - i met roque when one nite i got so pissed off tatto made me wait for him all day n evenin, n finally when he got off work at abt midnite, instead of spendin time w/me, he decided to see off his stupid secretary (who, of course, is in love w/him too - she burst into tears when he told her he cudnt see her as more than just a friend)...i rang up veni n told her i needed a drink n we ended up in our usual hangout, we were gna leave after an hr but there was this gorgeous stud (enter roque) there....we got chatting n.......well, to cut a long story short, roque dropped me off at my place at abt 6am hahaha
well bk to the dream, it wasnt an interrogation, more so a "had u not met roque, we wouldve been fine..had u waited for me patiently that nite (more like let u walk all over me, huh tatto???), we wouldve worked out just right" statement
in the dream i was filled w/regret..filled w/sadness....i felt so guilty...i dint answer him...i cudnt answer him...i was hurting so bad too....

sigh
:( dont even ask me wat id do if..say....tomorw tatto asked me to get back together w/him

all i know is, right now im missing him like hell.....i still love the guy for christs sake.....ive just putting him out of my mind this whole while, ok??? #

      [ posted @ 11:04:00 AM ] pv
a quick blog before i turn in

whoa today was nother productive day..u shud alll b so proud of me..heheh
chucked out an entire box of old school stuff, im gna take em out for recyclin tomorw....hmm organized my teachin material, n boy there r soo many of em, so it took a cpl hrs...so i was watchin tv n doin that at the same time....prepared somethin for my kids tomorw, for art&craft..its an xmas stocking...i dint really need to go to the art supplies store bcos i already had what i needed here at home...sorted out my fone bills, bank statements, work docs, etc n then filed them.
my room is still in a mess tho..but one thing at a time yea

tomorw im gna b relatively bz, probly wont blog till jst b4 bed..yay the amazing race is on tomorw..def gna watch it.

oh yea nother thing: today i had a massive fight w/ my boss...well i thought what happend yesterday cudnt get ne worse, but hell today shit hit the fan n it ended w/ me stompin off after i crackd somthing rude to her ..well she was rude first, mighty tacky n tactless wat she said..i had to stop myself from sayin smth i knew id regret later, so i thought the best way to deal w the situation was to just walk out..n walk out i did, without so much as a goodbye or watever...i literally stormed out..well fuck her, i hate her. n i dont really care......

im yawnin big time now...gta b up in 4 hrs, n then workin till evenin argh....last wk i almost fell asleep n i had to keep gettin up to drink h2o to prevent myself frm dozin off....i hate thursdays..

zzzZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzz #

      [ posted @ 10:53:00 AM ] pv
"I believe that imagination is stronger than knowledge --
That myth is more potent than history.
I believe that dreams are more powerful than facts --
That hope always triumphs over experience --
That laughter is the only cure for grief.
And I believe that love is stronger than death."

- Robert Fulghum #

[ posted @ 9:57:00 PM ] pv
i have sooooo much to do today. need to walk jin, then prepare for class tomorrow...need to drop by the art supplies store tonite to get somethin for class tomorrow. but first, i need to 'work'. ugh, i hate my job. i hate my boss...i hate everything about my 'job'. but im working on gettin a new one, hopefully b4 chinese new yr..fingers crossed.....

on a brighter note, ive been doin productive stuff around the house...cleaning my room for xmas (no, no decorations..just makin sure when moms friends pop by for xmas, they wont think her daughters an unhygienic, bummy nutso)...trashing things, takin paper out for recycling, basically putting things in order. i have a whole load to do b4 xmas...plus this wk i gotta reformat my hard drive bcos my pc is too jammed up w/my mp3s nothing is working...yep, printers not working, outlooks not working, neros not working, nothing is workin :(

k im off, be back in abt 2 hrs #

[ posted @ 12:19:00 PM ] pv
food for thought:

If you think your love would not be welcomed do not voice it. For it be slient it can be endured, and guarded, like a flame.
- Antoine de Saint-Exupery

i never not show my feelings. maybe i should rethink this. but shudnt we always follow our heart? let someone know that we love them? if not, then wouldnt that be a betrayal? urgh.

n one more thing before i turn in: im still hurting...i guess im not yet over tatto. my heart feels this twinge of pain when i think of how things used to be. everything reminds me of us..n i have to always consciously put them out of my mind, or else i start to cry and.......
i have to leave the room when a tv pgrm reminds me of him...i switch channels, or skip tracks off my mp3 player.....i cannot read our emails..neither can i put away stuff hes given me. im always trying to be bz, just so my mind doesnt wander to thoughts of him....i just red someones blog n shes not yet over her ex, n its been a year. frankly speaking, that scares the shit out of me....will i ever get over him? wat will become of us? we talked abt being 'just friends' but neither of us r sure if we can, bcos theres so much water under the bridge already
also, i think he still feels the same way abt me, but he knows hes gotta let go....obviously, he doenst want us to be in love w/each other the way we used to be..i mean, hes getting married in cpl of mths....

whatever the case, i hold him in my heart fondly. i wud like us to be friends...but that really dpends on him. :(
but i tink ill b ok if he chooses to not be friends....

goodnite. im tired....
yawn

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      [ posted @ 9:23:00 PM ] pv
thinking too much will kill you, really.
sometimes u jst gota take things at face value n like it as it is..bcos when u cut n dissect n examine n critique n analyze n evaluate n suggest n ask "what if?" or "why?" or "it couldve been" or "maybe im just thinkin what i want to think" or "mebe i jst blieved what i wanted to believe" then trust me: the world will pass u by n b4 u know it, ure stuck in this deep, black void n u r scrambling to get out but its too late...theres too much goin on in ur mind n the worlds left u behind in ur egocentric thoughts....n if ure a cynical morbid pessimist like me: every minute of ur life will be filled with hurt n pain n regret n tears n anger...bcos u always think the world is out to get u, n u tink ur life sucks, n u tink god cursed u the day u were born, n u tink u r destined to be unhappy n miserable, n u tink nobody loves u, n u tink ure this weak sappy WRETCH.
i mean even if u r a pathetic little moron like me, some positivity - even fake - helps. its like faking a smile, really..u dont really gta feel happy, but when u really need it, u can pretend to be happy n force a smile...n in a little while, ur perception of things change...the world seems a little brighter..ur problems a little smaller...life a little more manageable...n trust me, when u get thru a minute..u get thru an hour..n when u get thru an hour, u get thru a day...n then a week...n then.....gradually but definitely, life moves on...you move on...without even knowing it, u start to live again...n leave all the past behind........

n somewhere along the line, paths will meet...n experiences will befall u.....n u never know what will happen....
but one things for sure..u will b ok, in time...

life = a whole bunch of happy, sad, funny, stupid, painful, strange, sappy experiences n incidents put together. but all enriching, all meaningful, all designed for a purpose: to make u a stronger, wiser n better person
we re here to bring positive change to ppls lives we enter n leave...we re here to leave the world a better place, bcos we loved a little, or loved a lot...or we were loved a little, or we were loved a lot.
love urself, love nature, love each other - this is what makes life, life. #

      [ posted @ 8:13:00 PM ] pv
its like life just got better overnight...
its like johnsons baby shampoo: "no more tears"
jst anticipation of tomorrow
the kind of future i wud like to create for myself, starting from today, right now. #

      [ posted @ 11:56:00 AM ] pv
i miss u roque
hope ure ok..

thinkin of you.
gdnite n love to you.. #

      [ posted @ 11:52:00 AM ] pv
General Happiness Score

Date: December 9, 2002

Your Score: 2.75
Range of Possible Scores: 1 to 7

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      [ posted @ 11:50:00 AM ] pv
signature strengths survey results:

my strengths r:

1.
Honesty, authenticity, and genuineness You are an honest person, not only by speaking the truth but by living your life in a genuine and authentic way. You are down to earth and without pretense; you are a "real" person.

2.
Bravery and valor You are a courageous person who does not shrink from threat, challenge, difficulty, or pain. You speak up for what is right even if there is opposition. You act on your convictions.

3.
Appreciation of beauty and excellence You notice and appreciate beauty, excellence, and/or skilled performance in all domains of life, from nature to art to mathematics to science to everyday experience.

4.
Modesty and humility You do not seek the spotlight, preferring to let your accomplishments speak for themselves. You do not regard yourself as special, and others recognize and value your modesty.

5.
Fairness, equity, and justice Treating all people fairly is one of your abiding principles. You do not let your personal feelings bias your decisions about other people. You give everyone a chance.
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      [ posted @ 10:27:00 AM ] pv
it is the coldest day of the year. its almost 2003 n today is the coldest day of the year...suxxxxxxx. well i dont really hate the cold, but 11degs is wayyy too cold for my liking. what more i had to be in nt today, so it was even colder. i tink it was barely 10 there..ugh. theres smth so unsexy abt winter..the huge puffy jackets that make u look like a waddling buffoon, the red nose u sport bcos ure sniffling half the goddamn time. sure winter is romantic - the cuddling, the hugging, the snuggling. but sexy? nope.

my feet hurt. im not quite sure why. i even pampered them today in the bath, with some peppermint foot scrub thing. so why r they hurting? i dint particularly walk too much today, just the usual few kms. i tink its the cold. i tink its frostbite aaaaaarghh..lol jk. but i tink im goin to turn in a bit earlier than usual tonite, i figure i want to sleep the rite hours n wake up earlier coz i dont wana waste half my day under the covers snoozin. today i woke up at almost noon (with good intentions) but then i remembered i had to run a lot of errands b4 work so i rushed like a mad cow...thank god i wasnt late for work. on a bright note, class went good n my boss is gna get me a teachin license, at his xpense! whoa that shud up my worth as a teacher methinks.

speakin of work, this wk im gna go for it: fix up my cv, apply for jobs, no more procratination! i wana start 2003 off with a bang, i wana take charge of my life, i wna do smth with my life, for once. so today i made some progress: i made a payment on my credit card, i spoke to someone abt payin off nother debt in installments, n im meetin a counsellor nex wk..yea u heard rite, im gna give this nother shot...i really wanna do things rite this time. n i feel im motivated enuff to go all out to make smth good happen. finally.

i still hvent startd on my xmas shoppin, or even my xmas card/pressie list: one tings for sure...i dont got ne money this yr so im gna hafta scrimp a bit. hmm.

gna trash some junk mail then im off to zzZzzz. #

[ posted @ 10:25:00 AM ] pv

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[ posted @ 10:11:00 AM ] pv

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[ posted @ 10:10:00 AM ] pv
1. IF YOU COULD BUILD YOUR HOUSE ANYWHERE, WHERE WOULD IT BE? somewhere by the water

2. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE ARTICLE OF CLOTHING? the perfect pair of jeans, my docs, backless tops, sexy tank tops, my old pair of nikes

3. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE PHYSICAL FEATURE OF THE OPPOSITE? hair, hands, neck, mouth, eyes....er, thats not a lot right?

4. WHAT'S THE LAST CD THAT YOU BOUGHT? was such a long time ago......umm let me think. fuck, i dont remember.

5. WHERE'S YOUR FAVORITE PLACE TO BE? under the covers in bed (indoors), by the water at the pier (outdoors)..or at a noisy pub or club, drinking away....

6.WHERE'S YOUR LEAST FAVORITE PLACE TO BE? at some boring formal get-together...or newhere in the presence of ppl u absolutely hate

7. WHERE'S YOUR FAVORITE PLACE TO BE MASSAGED? shoulders, at the base of my neck

8. WHAT'S MOST IMPORTANT, STRONG IN MIND OR STRONG IN BODY? dumb question. the former of course

9. WHAT TIME DO YOU WAKE UP IN THE MORNING? dpends on the day of the week, the earliest wud be 7 something tho

10.WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE SHOW? hmmmm..any serious show i guess. as long as it isnt silly comedy.

11. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE KITCHEN APPLIANCE? does a microwave count?

12. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE CHILDHOOD MEMORY? ummm nothing particularly sticks outta my mind...hmm goin to the beach w/my fam i guess....n literally not bein able to sleep the nite b4, bcos id b sooo xcited

13. WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH? very little..but in a sad sorta way, whn i tink of my pathetic life

14. WHAT MAKES YOU REALLY ANGRY? animal abuse, ppl who wilfully hurt, racist ppl

15. IF YOU COULD PLAY ANY INSTRUMENT, WHAT WOULD IT BE? the electric guitar

16. FAVORITE RESTAURANT/CAFE/EATERY? fat angelo's

17. SCARIEST MOMENT OF YOUR LIFE? that nite i was drunk n dpressed n i was thisclose to jumpin off a friends balcony. i realizd my stupidity the v nex day when i was sober enuff to remember what cudve happened

18. IF THERE WAS A MOVIE MADE ABOUT YOU, WHAT CURRENT/FORMER HOLLYWOOD STAR WOULD PLAY YOU? i have no idea

19. DO YOU BELIEVE IN AN AFTERLIFE? i do now

20.FAVORITE CHILDREN'S BOOK? tintin!

21. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SEASON? fall..whn evything comse to a close

22. WHAT IS YOUR LEAST FAVORITE HOUSEHOLD CHORE? changin the sheets on my bed

23.THE SONG YOU WISHED YOU HAD WRITTEN? whoa, there r so many of them

24. WHO WAS YOUR FIRST LOVE AND WHAT AGE? i was an ardent feminist until my early 20s...

25. WHAT'S IN THE TRUNK OF YOUR CAR? i dont ve a car. wish i did.

26. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE DAY? it dpends on what i gotta do on that day

27. USING ONLY ONE WORD, DESCRIBE YOURSELF. unsure #

[ posted @ 9:32:00 AM ] pv

I am the Natural

Childhood is the golden paradise we are always consciously or unconsciously trying to re-create. The Natural embodies the longed-for qualities of childhood - spontaneity, sincerity, unpretentiousness. In the presence of Naturals, we feel at ease, caught up in their playful spirit, transported back to that golden age. Adopt the pose of the Natural to neutralize people's defensiveness and infect them with helpless delight.

Symbol: The Lamb. So soft and endearing. At two days old the lamb can gambol gracefully; within a week it is playing "Follow the Leader." Its weakness is part of its charm. The Lamb is pure innocence, so innocent we want to possess it, even devour it.

What Type of Seducer are You?
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polite_society

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[ posted @ 8:02:00 AM ] pv
.......kiara embarks on the final act of defiance. #

[ posted @ 7:04:00 AM ] pv
1. eat right
2. get a real job
3. deal with debts
4. start a savings scheme
5. never not be reading at least one book at all times
6. read the paper everyday
7. get a library card
8. buy a car
9. write letters weekly
10. think positively
11. move out
12. volunteer at peta
13. make parents proud of me
14. don't not love roque for his wanting to fulfil his role as father
15. be happy
16. be healthy
17. focus on life goals
18. be happy #

fascinating (not) tales of the life and love of a fucked up fat girl. im sorry i fail all of you but i can only be me

i am feeling

> ::: first base ::: >
icq | 1891523
email | eminem | hotmail
yahoo | punkyvegan

> ::: superman ::: >
i cant stand to fly
im not that naive
im just out to find
the better part of me

im more than a bird
im more than a plane
im more than some pretty face
beside a train
and its not easy to be me

i wish that i could cry
fall upon my knees
find a way to lie
bout a home ill never see

it may sound absurd
but thats all that i need
even heroes have the right to bleed
i may be disturbed
but won't you concede
even heroes have the right to dream
n its not easy to be me

up, up and away, away from me
well its all right you can all sleep sound tonight
im not crazy...or anything

i cant stand to fly
im not that naive
men werent meant to ride
with clouds between their knees

im only a man no silly red sheet
diggin for kryptonite on this one way street
only a man, no phony red sheet
looking for...special things inside of me
inside of me
inside of me
yeah, inside me
inside of me

im only a man
no phony red sheet
im only a man
looking for a dream

im only a man
no phony red sheet
and its not easy...

its not easy
to be me

> ::: the unforgiven ::: >
new blood joins this earth
and quickly hes subdued
thru constant pain disgrace
the young boy learns their rules

with time the child draws in
this whipping boy done wrong
deprived of all this thoughts
the young man struggles on

and on hes known
a vow unto his own
that never from this day
his will theyll take away

what ive felt what ive known
never shined thru in what ive shown
never be never see
wont see what might have been
what i felt what ive known
never shined thru in what ive shown
never be never me
so i dub thee unforgiven

they dedicate their lives
to running all of his
he tries to please them all
this bitter man he is

thruout his life the same
hes battled constantly
this fight he cannot win
a tired man they see

he no longer cares
the old man then prepares
to die regretfully
that old man here is me

what ive felt what ive known
never shined thru in what ive shown
never be never see
wont see what might ve been
what ive felt what ive known
never shined thru in what ive shown
never free never me
so i dub thee unforgiven

what ive felt what ive known
never shined thru in what ive shown
never be never see
wont see what might ve been
what ive felt what ive known
never shined thru in what ive shown
never free never me
so i dub thee unforgiven

never free never me
so i dub the unforgiven

u label me
i label u
so i dub the unforgiven

never free never me
so i dub thee unforgiven

u label me
i label u
so i dub thee unforgiven

> ::: footprints ::: >

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> ::: ny 2003 ::: >
01 eat right | 02 get a real job | 03 deal with debts | 04 start a savings plan | 05 always be reading at least one book at all times | 06 read the paper everyday | 07 save up for a car | 08 write letters weekly | 09 think positively | 10 move out, get own place | 11 volunteer at peta | 12 make parents proud of me | 13 be happy | 14 be healthy | 15 focus on life goals | 16 be happy

> ::: whats up ::: >
march
~~04 | movie date w veni~~
~~06 | veni + jericks 9th yr anniversary; AS leaves for sydney for good~~
~~11 | AS bday~~
~~13 | peta dinner~~
~~14 | jericks bday; peta demo at kfc - lan kwai fong, noon~~
~~15 | bkfair at german swiss intl school~~
~~17 | mom n dads 30th wedding anni~~
~~20 | moms bday; meatout 2003~~
~~22 | bar hopping w veni?~~
~~23 | spca pet walk 2003 - tai tam reservoir, 10a-noon~~
~~24 | d-day, 1st year anniversary~~

april
~~04 | 9.30am job interv; 2-6pm meet w job agent~~; ~~first bellydancing class 7.30pm~~
~~07 | alfreds bday~~
07-09 | asia for animals conference
~~14 | anti-dog/cat eating demo worldwide~~
19 | ryans bday
27 | unc romy's bday
20 | dads bday

> ::: to do ::: >
. pics on yahoo
. write up a letter to student loans
. send stuff to shah
. sort -ves/pics
. get lenses n glasses
. smth for veni
. jinns vet appt
. dimp, sonys bday pressie
. send kan her stuff
. ~~compile AL/AR ngo list~~
. ~~head over to cath shop~~
. post tatt's stuff
. do tim's arts/craft
. trade amex flyer points
. pick up license ($1k), deadline jan 04
. save hotmail sent mail
. ~~burn teroh stuff on cd~~
. change info of all online accounts
. sunday complaint letter
. read za's blog
. ~~c the doc (maybe?)~~
. ~~change blog template~~
. stuff to give sony/dimp
. ~~draft out stans speech~~

> ::: about moi ::: >
kiara on good days, killkiara on bad days | a libran in my 20s | a dragon baby | vegan and proud | born in the phils | moved to hk 20+ yrs ago | sing used to b my 2nd home for reasons id rather (but cant) forget | i have a soft spot for indo | used to be in love and obssessed with tatto, whos now married | currently has the hots for/falling in love with stan, a seattle boy

> ::: all i am ::: >
insecure | emotional | disenchanted, disillusioned and disappointed | supersensitive | melancholic by nature | fragile and easily broken | stubborn as a bull | always restless | pensive to the point of paranoia | unhealthily sentimental | demonstrative of my feelings | openly affectionate | i dont forget easily | i listen to my heart more than my head | cold and distant | i dont like nor trust people | idealistic but hopeless | hoping but pessimistic | pure in heart but tainted in spirit

> ::: favorite things ::: >
walking barefoot | sky gazing at night | being disorganized | babies (age <6) | giving presents to ppl i love | clubbing (and drinking) | the taste of blood | sitting by the pier when im down | really late nights | telling myself that im a failure, so that when i beat the odds im pleasantly surprised | hugs | being a girly-girl when im in love | being treated like a girly girl when im in love | dressing up for the occasion | peanuts and peanut candy | candles and incense sticks | smelling and kissing the back of my mans neck | spiritual conversations | the smell of vanilla

> ::: pet peeves ::: >
people who chew with their mouths open (esp gum) | festive events esp bdays and xmas | having to throw stuff away | asians/wannabe gweis with fake pseudo yanky/pommy/etc accents | nouveau-riche bastards (and bitches) who think theyre all that | when animals suffer | all this hype over article 23 of the basic law | people who teach their pets dumb tricks | sorority-type airheads | guys wearing tight jeans/pants | my hair just after its washed | the sight/smell of raw meat | being broke | takin cat naps in the afternoon (i wake up real cranky) | lies, dishonesty, fakeness for the sake of formality

> ::: good gurl ::: >
my honesty | generosity | im very dedicated and devoted | im not materialistic | im earthy | im true and genuine to myself and the ppl around me | i dont play mindgames nor bullshit | im environmentally conscious and socially aware | im painstakingly meticulous in my thoughts so im never caught unaware in the end | my inate sense of compassion | im unafraid | im not a sellout (and will never be one)

> ::: bad bitch ::: >
my honesty | prone to xtreme bouts of mood swings, depresssion and self-hate | i think too much and feel too much | i do stupid things when i feel like it | im neurotic | im unforgiving | i dont have a sense of humor | i spend too much money | im always suspicious of people | i procrastinate | when i m anxious, afraid or nervous, i bite my nails till they bleed | i get too attached to ppl too soon | im a crybaby | my belief in the existence of a perfect world | my desperate attempts to find that perfect world

> ::: i want ::: >
to be understood | all animals to be free | animals to not be human fodder | vivisection, hunting, fishing, fur, circuses, zoos, pet stores, etc banned for good | no racial/ gender/ ethnic/ class/ religious/ political barriers between us | honesty from everyone around me | inner peace | true, everlasting love | to feel excited that im alive | to never lose my integrity | to live simply, feel deeply, love openly and express honestly

> ::: all the world's a stage ::: >
AS | first love..almost got engaged to him but i messed up. together for 5+ yrs..the most wonderful, decent, understanding, kind man in the universe... whoever marries this guy is the luckiest girl on the planet

jinger | aka jinn/jinney..much-loved baby, reason of my existence, purpose of my being

kitty | rip baby girl - ure never forgotten...i love you

roque | ex-love...came into my life, loved me, turned my life around..then left for the states suddenly. currently mia but i will always be grateful to him for saving me..i hold him close to my heart

stan | current fixation and obsession..object of my affections and my hearts desire. lives millions of miles away and i miss him terribly :( sexy, studly, gorgeous and has a beautiful mind

tatto (tatt) | the love of my life? we could not be together due to circumstances beyond our control..the creator-destroyer of my life

tim | my kiddo with tatto. turned 3 in jan 2003..health and happiness to you always little 'un

tom | online friend extraordinaire..a truly one of a kind kind of guy

veni | dancing queen, girl of many men's (and women's?) fantasies, die-hard gackt fan, anime freak, ardent meat eater...also: best friend/ girlfriend/ life saver/ partner in crime/ personal life coach/ motivator/ unpaid shrink/ punching bag of yours truly

> ::: current state ::: >
updated on 15 apr
local time 01:32 (+8.00 GMT)

wearing | blk baby tee, green hipsters

doing | chillin...i m *so* tired :(

watching | nothing

listening to | nothing

eating | had wholewheat crackers last

drinking | hmm tink gna make myself some kunyit asam now

reading |
1. our looks, our lives
by nancy friday (harper)
2. the amazing true story of a teenage single mom
by katherine arnoldi (hyperion)
3. teen love on relationships
by kimberly kirgerger (hci teens)
4. the perfectly contented meat-eater's guide to vegetarianism
by mark warren reinhardt (continuum)

> ::: weather ::: >

hk | kiara

indo | tatto

sing | tatto

seattle | stan

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I believe that imagination is stronger than knowledge -
That myth is more potent than history.
I believe that dreams are more powerful than facts -
That hope always triumphs over experience -
That laughter is the only cure for grief.
And I believe that love is stronger than death.
~ Robert Fulghum

If you think your love would not be welcomed do not voice it. For it be slient it can be endured, and guarded, like a flame.
~ Antoine de Saint-Exupery

Its best to not ask the questions of answers u dont wanna know, or answers which u know will only bring u pain.
~ me

sometimes you just have to learn to let things go. its hard. you let go though. don't dwell on something until it eats you away. try to see people in the now, and what they mean. not by things they've done in the past.
~ rola

Love is passion. Obsession. Someone you can't live without. Someone you fall head over heels for. Find someone you can love like crazy, and will love you the same way back. Listen to your heart. No sense in life without this. To make the journey without fallin deeply in love, you haven't lived a life at all. You have to try, because if you haven't tried, then you haven't really lived.
~ from "Meet Joe Black"

Every place you land in life has a reason and a lesson.
~ Tori Amos

One must still have chaos in oneself to be able to give birth to a dancing star.

The first step to finding love is to look inside yourself for it.

God grant me the serenity to accept the things i cannot change, courage to change the things i can, n wisdom to know the difference.

Life is a tragedy for those who feel, and a comedy for those who think

The greatest power we have is the power of choice. It's an actual fact that if you've been moping in unhappiness, you can choose to be joyous instead and by effort, lift yourself to joy. If you tendto be fearful, you can overcome that misery by choosing to have courage. Even in the darkest grief you have choice. The whole trend and quality of anyone's life is determined in the long run by the choices that are made.
~ Norman Vincent Peale

If you have the courage to love, you survive.
~ Maya Angelou

We are healed from suffering only by experiencing it in the full.
~ Marcel Proust

To fear love is to fear life, and those who fear life are already three parts dead.
~ Bertrand Russell

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